When I See You by blackpanther
Summary: A Poem portraying Snape's conflicted emotions and mind from the time when Harry entered his life. From the day when he first walked through the gates of Hogwarts to get sorted and onwards.

The sister, you could say, to my poem "The First and the Last Sight", but told in Snape's voice, addressing Harry.

Disclaimer: All things Harry Potter belong to J.K. Rowling.
Categories: Misc > Strictly Canon Universe, Teacher Snape > Professor Snape, Misc > All written in Snape's POV Main Characters: .Snape and Harry (required), James, Lily
Snape Flavour: Canon Snape
Genres: Canon, Drama
Media Type: None
Tags: None
Takes Place: None
Warnings: None
Challenges: None
Series: None
Chapters: 1 Completed: Yes Word count: 511 Read: 687 Published: 01 May 2016 Updated: 01 May 2016
Story Notes:
Snape is writing a poem at night, speaking to Harry and trying to sort out and explain his conflicted perception of him, the prophecied one, the son of the love of his life and his schooldays' bane.

1. When I See You by blackpanther

When I See You by blackpanther
You have your mother's eyes

Your father's face

The day I first saw you

Everything surfaced

–OoOoO–

All the things I had oppressed

–OoOoO–

All the bitterness

All the tenderness

All my bittersweet memories

–OoOoO–

I must confess

–OoOoO–

I was a bit surprised

The day you walked into my life

You looked so tiny

Sitting beneath the hat

In truth

You reminded me of Lily

Looking nothing like a spoiled brat

–OoOoO–

But I was not surprised

When a Gryffindor you became

After all, that was the house on both your parents' side

But later, I heard, that the hat had had a hard time

–OoOoO–

To decide

–OoOoO–

According to the Headmaster

it had had a divided mind

Between Gryffindor and Slytherin

–OoOoO–

I must confess

–OoOoO–

It took me by surprise

That you nearly ended up in the very house of mine

Sometimes, it crosses my mind

Yes, I do often ponder, what might have been

If you had been a Slytherin

–OoOoO–

I must confess

–OoOoO–

As the hat

I have a conflicted mind

–OoOoO–

And then I learned you can talk to snakes

It really blew my mind away

–OoOoO–

Every time I see your face

I see James

–OoOoO–

But then I meet your gaze

I see another face

Curtained by a golden copper frame

–OoOoO–

I am taken back in time

When she once called me

Friend of mine

In your eyes, I see the ghost of her smile

–OoOoO–

You have eyes like her; like the forest

Green glittering in the rising morning sun

But it is no surprise

You are her very son

–OoOoO–

Her only son, for whom she gave her life

Made the ultimate sacrifice

–OoOoO–

But it was no surprise

–OoOoO–

Because Lily had the noblest of minds

So very kind

She saw the good in everyone

She would do just anything for her child

Believe me

You were her very light

For her sake

I will protect you with my life

–OoOoO–

But I am sure

–OoOoO–

It would take you by surprise

To know the truth behind the lies

All you see is my harshness in class

All my pain hidden behind a mask

–OoOoO–

You see, every time I see you

It is like a sword pierces me deeply

The eyes of my Lily who I loved so dearly

In the face of my bane, who treated me so badly

–OoOoO–

To top it all, you are the constant reminder

–OoOoO–

The embodiment

Of all regret

Of my gruesome mistake

–OoOoO–

A prophecy retold to He Who Must Not Be Named

–OoOoO–

Sometimes, I put on you the blame

for that fateful day

–OoOoO–

You see, you lived and she died

I have a conflicted mind

–OoOoO–

But in truth, you were but a babe

And deep inside

I wish you had been mine

–OoOoO–

I have to realize

She is gone

And you are but a boy

–OoOoO–

Her only son, who I will protect at any cost

Because otherwise, all would be lost

–OoOoO–
The End.
End Notes:
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