Summary: Snape always wanted to be nothing like his father. Which is why he was determined never to beat a kid (not that Hogwarts would allow him to). But he can't just snap his fingers unlearn the instincts and attitudes aquired from Tobias Snape and the Death Eaters, that he still sort of believe - that tell him that the strong force others to respect them, that beating those who don't respect you until they just. shut. up. means strength, and that resisting the impulse to attack those who walk all over you is weak and pathetic. In his bones, Snape believes people are either weak or strong, and he's been choosing weakness by keeping his fists off of mini-James Potter while Potter mouths off to him, walks all over him, with impunity, for years.
Another side of Snape knows that it's terrible to beat a child. That normal people probably never want to hit kids. That he will never, ever, become like his father. That he must not indulge that side of himself, that indulging his nasty side is something he has left forever in his Death Eater past (except in little ways that don't matter, like scaring Neville). He will let himself feel weak, even if playing by the good guy rules doesn't earn him much respect, let alone fear, but mostly just earns him scorn for still not being nice enough or good enough who knows what else other than the fact that he won't just beat some respect into them.
Then Snape finds himself responsible for Harry outside of Hogwarts. Harry is actively antagonizing him. Harry, perhaps, keeps putting himself in danger in defiance of Snape's orders. And finally, Snape decides to beat the fool out of him. Once he's finally done what he's been itching to do for years, what happens next? How can this be the turning point in their relationship in such a different way than Snape wanted it to be?
Harry should probably be of age if they end up friends afterward, so that it isn't some messed up abused child psychology.
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