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After a series of tests to discover why Harry's magic has become erratic, a secret is revealed, one hidden for over fifteen years. But not all secrets disappear without consequence, leaving Severus to learn that potions cannot heal everything.
Takes Place: 6th summer
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Snape flavour: None
Tags: Alternate Universe
Categories: Parental Snape > Guardian Snape, Healer Snape, Parental Snape > Biological Father Snape
Membership status: Member
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Reviews by autumnamberleaves
Rated: T
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Warnings: Profanity
Chapters: 45 - Completed: No - Updated: 23 May 2012 / 29 Jul 2009
Series: Alea Iacta Est - Challenges: None
Chapters: 45 - Completed: No - Updated: 23 May 2012 / 29 Jul 2009
Series: Alea Iacta Est - Challenges: None
| Title: Chapter 22: Seeking Answers | 08 Oct 2009 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Wow…another chapter that I read at 6 AM on my phone and am now reviewing. First of all, this chapter was brilliant! It had just the right amount of angst and was not “oh me! Oh my!” like. I like how this chapter focused on Severus and his anxiety prior to brewing the paternity potion. I had a sneaky feeling that one of the ways that Severus would find out the truth was by such a potion (He IS a Potions Master after all!) Hmm…that letter sounds interesting, I guess “Snape” is a “unregistered” alias, which makes sense in a couple of ways (the whole thing with his parents moving to America and the fact that he is..was…a spy). “Please do not respond to this automated message. All concerns must be dealt with in person at the Ministry of Magic. Proper identification is required, and all wizards and witches may be subject to magical signature scans to prove his or her identity.” Wow, that ought to be interesting when/if the Ministry finds out that “Severus Prince” and “Severus Snape” are one in the same. I loved how Snape automatically accused the Weasley twins of sending him a false letter. In his defense though, it DOES sound like something that they would do, as much as I love them. I thought that it was cute (once again, PLEASE don’t tell Snape that I called something that he did, “cute.” “Instead of his post, Severus found Minerva washing her hands at the sink.” LOL, that would have given me a heart-attack, someone being in my home without my a) consent and b) knowledge, I guess Snape was able to curtail his surprise, being a great spy for so long. Oh that’s another thing I found that I pondered over, Severus is typically cool and collected about being thrown in for a loop, but be there a possibility of him having a son in the first place and said son being none other than Harry “Potter,” the student who used to be a thorn in his side, and he goes nuts. Ahh….Severus sounds so tired, “"Do I look like I need help?" Severus sneered. He couldn't help it.” Poor Minerva, but then again, she’s probably used to that and more coming from that particular man. Ah, but a few minutes later he is all for having Minerva to stay so that he could uncover the truth in his most trusted way, a potion. The practical side of me HAD to roll my eyes at Minerva’s “"Is he alright?" Minerva said, her eyes following the tubes from where they snaked out from under the child's duvet up to the infusion pump.” Hello, does he LOOK “all right,” to you?” but then again my reasonable side took over, despite being told what it was, she probably still doesn’t understand much about Muggle medical procedures/equipment and even less about cancer. I’ll forgive her for that one; anyway, she’s hard to stay annoyed at, especially when she is so concerned and everything. Uh oh, the second anti-emetic didn’t work and I don’t place much hope in the third one either, poor Harry, lucky us though. “"They look good," Harry nodded his approval. Severus rolled his eyes. The boy didn't even have his own glasses on and his eyesight was horrible without them. How could the boy tell if his glasses looked good or not? "Can you put some more eye drops into my eyes for me? They're starting to itch again."” Does Snape know that Harry has seen them on him earlier? I bet Snape WOULD look good in glasses, despite his dismay. Ah…that picture of Harry trying to put in his own eye drops made me smile, I can’t do them to save my life, as the saying goes either. I also have glasses and my depth perception is fairly terrible without them. “"I'll be right down the hall if you need me," Severus whispered to the child,” I bet despite seeing Severus interact with Harry in the hospital wing, it threw Minerva in for a loop seeing how gentle Snape was still being to his childhood’s enemy “son.” “Severus ran his hand through the thick mop of hair” Snape does that a lot, it’s a great soother, I wonder how both of them will take it when Harry’s hair falls out. “Minerva nodded, her eyes unsure and worried.” Hmm, I wonder if she is getting an inkling of how bad off Harry is, she’s typically never unsure. By far, my favorite section was the last, “The potion would've changed by now. It only took a few seconds for results, but Severus couldn't bring himself to turn back around quite yet. If it were red, Severus didn't know what to do. He didn't even know how it could be possible or where he'd need to look for answers. More importantly, what would it do to the tentative trust he had developed with the boy? Would Harry hate him for having to grow up with those horrible Muggles? He didn't know the first thing in how to be a father, and yet there was a possibility he was the father of a very sick child, one that could very well die from cancer. But before Severus could even start to seek answers, he needed the most important answer, the one that the potion sitting behind him was holding.
With his eyes closed, Severus turned around. He could do this. It was only a matter of opening his eyes and determining if the color before him was red or black. Any four-year-old could read the results. There was no mistaking the two colors, and he knew he had brewed the potion perfectly. Mustering up courage, enough to confuse the Sorting Hat to put him into Gryffindor, Severus opened his eyes, unprepared for the results before him.
Red.” That whole section was simply AMAZING! I can see Snape worried about Harry’s trust and his regret at having had his son grow up at the stupid Dursley’s house. I think, although it will be a tough road, I think that Harry will forgive him, after all Snape has done for him whilst not knowing he was his Dad. Yes, he treated Harry awful for five years, but he’s changed and I think even if Harry struggles with it, he will turn to him again. Oh and that last word, “red,” really sent a shiver down my back, though I had guessed that was going to happen. Severus will probably “hate” himself though, knowing how bad he treated his son and even though unknowingly, allowing him to grow up unloved by his relatives. Hmm…I think Snape will have some “investigating to do, starting from the only one who trusted him when Harry was a baby (Dumby) and then I wouldn’t want to be him (I still have my wand trained on him) or the Dursley’s, I can imagine when it’s time for revenge, Snape won’t be “gentle.” LOL. Oh and then an Order meeting that very night, I wonder who will watch Harry and also I question what the Order meeting could be about. Also, I hope that the truth (the truth that Harry DOES have cancer) comes out in spectacular fashion. The Order, well certain members and students deserve to know the truth, not that I believe that Hermione would take Mrs. Weasley’s declaration for fact, I think that if anyone, she’d figure out the truth from lies. Well, I’m getting ahead of myself, I don’t even know if Hermione will even be there, but she does spend a lot of time with the Weasleys. I’m still curious about Ron and Hermione’s letters to Harry, but understand that Severus hasn’t had a lot of time to peruse through his “son’s” post. I hope that Remus make an appearance soon, he’d be devastated about Harry, having only lost his best friend a few months prior and learning that his other late best friend’s “son,” has a dreaded, deadly disease. Well, I think that should be about it now, but I hope that you update soon, though as always, I know you are busy with school and work, just today, I had a lady bring up THIRTY pieces of men’s clothing, deliberate on EACH item and pick FIVE at the register…oh well, another great chapter and I’m sure the next will be as well. Great job. :-) -Autumn
Author's Response:
Well, what other way would Sev trust more than a potion? The next few chapters will be interesting with the WCS letter and Order meeting...
I'm happy to hear you liked how he thought it was the Weasley twins at first. They of course take the blame for everything, and it's usually their faults. Severus is totally exhausted and that won't help his temper. It's always scary seeing medical equipment hooked up to a person, and I think it worried Minerva quite a bit.
I have glasses. Well, revise that statement I have a pair of glasses that have never been worn for more than five minutes, nor do I wear contacts. I have a slight astigmatism which means I can see fine without them, just don't expect me to be able to read the street sign from a few hundred feet away. I could tell you if the street had a long or short name though, but I noticed the few times I did put them on, it like does change your depth perception, and I can't imagine how much worse it would be for someone with bad vision.
Ah you picked the hair thing up. I've been purposely doing that, and I wondered if anyone would notice. Good job.
You're right about not wanting to be Dumbledore. Keep that wand out. ;) I think the truth will come out quite spectacularly. It definitely won't be quiet. That's for sure.
Ugh, I totally hate it when customers do that. It's like dude figure it out before you get up here. I also hate when people try one twenty things, and don't get anything. Then they leave it all for you at the fitting room and they can't even be bothered to hang it up. Thanks!
| Title: Chapter 23: Unanswered Questions | 16 Oct 2009 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Hey there,
Let's see, I say "P-cawn," as I am from the South. I'd also like a bag of pecans for my reward for reviewing.
Great chapter as always. Though it was not action filled, you still managed to do it up right. I really enjoyed the chapter. I'm glad that Severus is wise enough to realize that he shouldn't trust Dumby, who by the way, curtousy of me, has had several hexes hurled at him due to his stealing Sev's mail. Hey Dumby, that's against the law (at least Muggle law, not sure about Wizarding) I guess he's going to excuse it away with "Best for wizarding sake," sigh.
Despite Snape usually keeping a level head in strife, I was glad to see him loose it with the potion phials.
"You won't have to worry about another occurrence like this year's where Harry and his cohorts sent Gryffindor into negative numbers, but I still think Slytherin will win," Severus enjoyed riling up Minerva over house rivalry." Aww, I sort of smirked at that, yes, Harry will be too sick to get into his normal yearly trouble, but even if he's well, I'm sure that Severus will be keeping a tight reign on his son. He won't be able to continuely risk his life. Aww, it was sad to see that Harry automatically assumed that he had made Severus angry. I LOVED how Severus quickly informed him otherwise, in fact this is my favorite line from this chapter,: "Merlin no, child," Severus said, his voice softening as he moved from the chair to Harry's side. Harry let out the breath he had been holding as Severus wrapped an arm around him and pulled him into his side. "You're never going back there. You hear me?"" That was sooo touching, I bet that Severus will be thinking up nasty but just desserts for those miserable excuses for human beings, of course to be carried out when Harry feels better.
Aww, Severus PRINCE sounds like he would look very handsome. I bet that pale blue shirt looks smashing on him, thanks for going with that instead of the (pretty but overused) Green. I admit I did lol at the fact that the Prince Signet is a unicorn, when I first read it, I pictured a unicorn a-la "My Little Pony" variety.
""Of course," she nodded. "Are you coming to the Order meeting tonight?"
"I haven't decided yet. I'm sure I could get Poppy or Mrs. Weasley to stay with Harry while I attend the meeting, but it'll depend on how he's feeling," Severus pinched the bridge of his nose. He really needed to brew a fresh batch of his strongest headache potion. " Hmm, I wonder if this is how Severus is going to realize something's amiss. I know that he is smart enough to realize that Ron told his Mom, but if he asks Molly to "babysit" Harry due to his cancer/chemo, and she thinks he is perfectly fine....yeah something is going to happen....Great job...
Time for questions:
-Remember when Harry's scar bled a few chapters back, why was that? I don't remember ever reading a reason why.
- Is Harry going to have blood transfusions/platlets? If my memory and information serve me correctly, then he would.
I hope that you update very soon. I really hope that the next chapter covers WCS AND the ORDER meeting (I'm excited for that chapter, girlie). Great job as usual.
Author's Response:
You can totally have a bag full of pecans. Have fun cracking them!
All I'll say is that Dumbledore has his reasons, and it's not quite as it seems...
Yes, Severus needed to lose it for a moment. He can't always keep everything bottled up.
I don't even think Sev has thought about retribution concerning the Dursleys. He's too busy with Harry at the moment.
I thought green wouldn't be weird enough of a color for Sev. LOL a unicorn a-la "My Little Pony." I can assure you the unicorn isn't as pretty as that.
I didn't ever gave a reason why, which reminds me that I should, so thanks!
Yes, Harry will have blood transfusions/platelets. However, it's kinda counterproductive to give him blood products at the same time of being infused with chemo since the chemo will work to kill off all the good cells that the blood products give him, unless his levels gets really low.
| Title: Chapter 24: Fear, Not Love Conquers All | 23 Oct 2009 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Good job on the loooong chapter, another one I read first thing in the morning (yeah, I was able to find it despite it not having been on the "recently updated list" at the time. I can't spend a lot of time reviewing this go-round, Father's visiting from Florida. You were right, that was a shock that Dumbledore had a semi-good reason for not telling, yet knowing about the news. I still don't like that he oblivated Molly though. I suppose that will come back to haunt him soon. I liked that Ron and Ginny think something's not on the up and up already. Good job!
I absolutely LOVED this line: ""My child," Severus hissed, his fingernails digging into his fists, "happens to be very ill, so ill that the common cold could kill him so excuse me if I wish to take the necessary precautions to ensure my child has a fighting chance to live." " Way to go Severus!
My heart broke at this line, "think you wanted your own son or daughter to cherish and experience the perfect childhood, unlike the unconventional and at times neglectful childhood that you endured between your parents and aunt and uncle." Poor Severus, poor Harry.
Anyways, a great chapter and I hope that you update soon. I look forward to more interaction between Harry and Severus, as well as the infamous Order meeting. Great job!
Author's Response:
Dumbledore isn't fully innocent. He'll still have to answer to Sev, and I don't think the Order meeting will go over well for him.
I'm so happy you loved that line. I thought it was so typical of what happens in real life. People half the time just can't help but comment on others.
It's natural to want to give your child more and better than what you had, and I couldn't resist giving Severus something to live for. In canon, his life is so depressing in a way. He has no one, and I know that makes him the perfect spy, but everyone deserves someone and what better than a child to love and cherish. Also, everyone has dreams and I wanted to show that even a cold person like Severus at one time had them.
Next chapter will definitely include some interaction between Harry and Sev. Harry was feeling a little ignored this chapter, but he'll be back. Thanks! :)
| Title: Chapter 26: Letting the Outside In | 19 Nov 2009 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Great job as usual! LOL-I'm not looking foward to next week at Kohl's either, we open at 4 AM (not that I have to be at that time), what time does Old Navy open? And yeah, we're all set up and have been for a couple months now, for Christmas (you asked this last time). Yummy, cookies! Ok on to the review, Thanks for telling why his scar bled, I thought it was something on those lines, but wasn't sure. I loved how Severus kept calling Harry (to himself) "son," and "child" it was all so sweet. Boy, I wouldn't want to be Dumby by the time Snape gets ahold of him...heck when MOLLY gets ahold of him. I liked that Severus was willing to "play" the adult, even in his own way with Molly. This chapter was so good that I didn't really mind the Order meeting not being in this chapter...it will be in the next one, right? :-P Anyways, great chapter and it gave me something to smile about (I have this major cold or something, feel sick as a dog (yeah, I know, I shouldn't complain, many, many people have it worse) and sound like Minnie Mouse when I attempt to speak...it was great "fun" being a cashier today). I hope that the next chapter is out soon but I definately understand it may not be because of Black Friday...*shudders*
""You need to trust that this is what's best for him," Severus sighed. He didn't have time for this nor should he have to reassure someone else about his child. If anything, people should be reassuring him that he was doing the right thing for Harry. " Aww, that's one of the sad things about being a "secret parent." I wish he had someone to comfort him. Reminds me of a family favorite song, "He's My Son," by Mark Shultz, that's what I first thought of about some of the chapters here...it's a great song, go listen to it, it's on Youtube.
Author's Response:
We open at 3. Blah. I was hoping for midnight so I could pull a midnight to 8am shift and all would be good with the world since I'm a night owl. lol. I have to work at 4 to noon, and I'm still debating if I'll go to sleep that night or just wait until I get home. We still aren't completely ready for Christmas. We're doing some moves in the store early in the week, which I'm excited about because we got all of our womens flannel pj pants in. They're like one of my favorite things ever from ON, and we only get them at Christmas time so I've been waiting. lol.
Yes, cookies and I didn't bake them myself so I can guarantee they're edible. lol.
I put that part in there about his scar just for you. I finally remembered to include it in thinking the whole time that you'd be happy that I remembered. Yes, the Order meeting will certainly be in the next chapter and Sev will get a chance to lose his temper. Sev is really stepping up to the plate when it comes to Harry.
Someone else suggested that song and I looked up the lyrics to it. I agree it fits this story. Maybe after he tells Harry he'll remember he needs to inform his parents they have a grandchild and he'll find some comfort there.
I hope you feel better soon and survive Black Friday!
| Title: Chapter 28: A Bump In the Road | 10 Jan 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Wow another great chapter girlie! I throughly enjoyed this chapter, but then again, I've loved all of them.
"the boy that wished upon a taped up star every night for someone to whisk him away from the Dursleys and raise him as their own." Uh oh, I knew as soon as I read that, that Harry would probably have trouble accepting Snape is his father and didn't do anything to save him when he was little. Well, I had guessed that Harry would have trouble accepting it, but as soon I read that, I just KNEW.
""Am I dying?" Harry blurted out. His hand flew to cover up his mouth. Harry hadn't meant to say that. He hadn't even been thinking it, at least not consciously. Was that the reason Severus didn't want to discuss the forms? The Professor didn't want him to know he was really dying?
"You are not dying," Severus' hold on his waist tightened. "Must I assign you lines until you believe me?" " Aww, I loved how Severus set to assure the lad that he was not going to die, he had such a "Snapeish" response...lol.
"There had to be a small chance that it wasn't as it seemed. That he wasn't some accidental child from an illicit affair, unwanted from the very beginning. Harry couldn't handle knowing he was never wanted. At least when he was growing up with the Dursleys he had the illusion his parents loved him even if they were dead. Not for the first time Harry wondered if it would've been better if he'd never been born. It seemed like his life caused trouble for everyone around him and this was the icing on the cake.
"You were wanted before you were ever born." Harry felt the bed dip and a second later one of Severus' trembling arms wrapped around his shoulders. "I... Lily and I reconciled after the pensieve memory you witnessed as I mentioned before." I love how Harry was thinking about having been unwanted and the very next thing that Severus said was to assure him that he had been wanted right from the start.
"Severus wasn't sure if that went better or worse than he expected. At the very least, Harry was showing emotion instead of bottling it up which was good. Sighing, Severus sent the wooden box back to his bedroom until Harry was ready to know more. He'd give Harry time to think and process the new information. Hopefully after the shock wore off his son would be more receptive to their newfound familial relationship.
Even though Harry had time to sulk, Severus had things to do. Harry's room wouldn't clean itself and he'd be damned if his child got an infection or picked up a virus on his watch." Ahh, I am glad that Severus is understanding and allowing Harry time to process the new information, that had to have been a shock! Also I was super glad that Snape NEVER wavered from his resolve about his child getting germs.
"After Harry's outburst, Severus was more curious than ever to know just what lines the Muggles had crossed. He was determined to get answers and file charges if necessary, but nothing could be done without Harry's cooperation." Yikies! I would NOT want to be the Dursley family when Snape has time to deal with them, even it was through a court system.
"Harry didn't say anything, but leaned sideways until he was resting against his chest. Severus wrapped his free arm around his son to hold him upright while he waited for Harry's nose to stop bleeding. " I think this proves that Harry will accept him again sooner than later, as he is still (subconsciously maybe) seeking a bit of comfort-leaning into Snape and then later feeling comfortable enough to fall asleep on the man. I so hope that Harry will trust in the man again, but then again, I can sort of a little bit understand how he feels. My father walked out of the family and is now only trying to create relationships with us....anyways...I hope that Harry will understand soon.
About that blood and then the other transfusion, I wonder if Severus will be capatible to help with that.
I wonder what the new side-effect will be, I am thinking that it might be hair loss…(I don’t review your story on ff.net as I do it here-but I am aware that you asked that question there). Side story-when my friend Courtney was going through chemo and had lost her hair, most if not all of her homebase class shaved their heads-yep even the girls-to show support….I’ve never done that, but I do donate my hair to “Locks for Love” a lot.
LOL, sure I'll scrunge up some snow for you and send it your way. It's been frigid here (Mechanicsville, VA) too and the wind chill! My cousin aunt and uncle live in Ozark, AL and from what they have said, they fully agree with you.
I hope that you update soon, I am so looking foward to it.
P.S. What happened to those letters that Hermimoine and Ron sent?
Great job-Autumn.
Author's Response:
I'm glad you liked the taped-up star bit. I thought it might be a bit ominous. Sev is still learning and will be learning how to be a father for quite some time so it's only natural he'll deal with things like a professor would. Even though Harry's mad, I'm sure Sev wanted to make sure Harry knew he was always wanted. I think Sev had some of those issues himself when he was younger so he knew some of what Harry may be thinking.
Severus knew going in that Harry's reaction might not be the best, so he was prepared to give Harry a little space. It may take Harry a bit to come around, but I'm sure he'll get there. He'll need Sev before long and Harry's really not in the position to put up a huge fight.
You'll have to wait and see about the new side effect, but you should remember I like to twist things up a bit. ;)
We're in the high 60s, almost 70 here, which will be nice for the upcoming Mardi Gras parades. I'm excited about those. lol. They're so much fun and best of all, it's free.
Sev will get to the letter soon. Give him some time to actually have time. ;) Thanks!
| Title: Chapter 29: Lying in the Aftermath | 11 Feb 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Great job! I am so glad that you updated, and what an update! It was superb! Before I forget, Happy Birthday! :-D Ok, on to the review:
The very first thing I noticed was that Harry was (understandably) back to calling the Potions' Master, "Snape." Undoubtedly, this is due to the distance he wants to put between himself and his "biological father." However, later in the chapter, when Harry was being mentally attacked by Voldermort, he automatically wishes that "Severus was back from the Headmaster's..." It could be a concidence, perhaps it may simply be that you did not want to overuse the name, "Snape." However, knowing how you write, it was quite deliberate. I think that Harry's subconscious still is holding onto that link between Severus and him. Thus, when he felt he needed him the most, he thought of him in the familar, "Severus," instead of the cold "Snape." He automatically switches back to "Snape," when it became apparent that the Potions' Master wouldn't (COULDN'T) help him. It is evident that Harry once again felt betrayed (though he was the one who put the silencing charm up that prevented Poppy from hearing and alerting Severus) by the man that was supposed to be his father, his protector.
So the new side effect, it was that everything is bland now, correct? I remember that is one side effect that can happen because of chemo. I wonder if he'll have to eventually have a feeding tube. That would suck, but be rather realistic, who knows...
I hope Harry is correct in thinking/hoping that his sore throat is due to vomiting so much and not getting a cold. I know that Severus has warded off germs the best he could, but a cold could still sneak up on them. I can't help thinking that this is a bit foreshadowing, maybe not for now, but foreshadowing nonetheless: "the back of his throat felt a little sore, enough to make him wonder if he caught a cold. Harry hoped not, but Miss Adamson or Snape hadn't said anything yet, so he hoped it was from vomiting so often. That last thing he wanted was to feel even worse." I think that you are probably hinting to us with the last sentence of that statement. Poor Harry.
One of my absolute favorite scenes in this chapter was the one between Ron and Molly. Despite my general attitude of neutralness with Ron in cannon, you have captured my attention. Your Ron I easily like right now. I felt my heart break for Ron, Molly, Harry and Severus (and Hermoine but as she's not in the chapter except in name...)
""Harry's hooked up to Muggle medical machines by tubes that have been inserted into his chest. It's unnerving to see at first," his mother wrapped her arms around him. "Don't you ever come down with anything that requires serious Muggle medical techniques, you hear me?" she squeezed him tighter.
"Yes, Mum," Ron leaned into his mother's hold, thankful for her comfort, yet wondering whom Harry had. He couldn't even imagine going through something so scary without his mum and dad or worse with Snape. He shuddered. The git probably had Harry scrubbing cauldrons or preparing gross potions ingredients despite his cancer." I almost cried when I read the bit about Molly ordering Ron never to become that sick. It's one of a parent's worst nightmares, to have a child so ill. I know that Molly thinks of Harry as her own "adopted" child, so she obviously can see the fragilty of life and wouldn't bare it if Ron or any of her other children became deathly sick. I also liked this part because Ron in cannon is known to be overshadowed, the youngest boy in his family, so not paid much attention as the others, and best friends with a highly profiled person. I also liked his misplaced concern about Harry's treatment from Snape, it felt very much in character. Your chapter gave Ron a special moment.
I can't help think of what Hermoine will say (OR DO) when she receives the missive that Harry really does have cancer. Somehow, I doubt she'll be passive with her emotions.
Great Snape confronts Dumby scene! I liked how at first Minerva snapped at the Potions' Master (when he got Dumby's wand) but quickly moved her anger to the Headmaster when the cat was out of the bag (sorry....couldn't resist, "cat"....yeah). I have a feeling, if Albus doesn't shape up, then Severus will be supported by Minerva, Molly, Poppy and not to mention the other lions.
Speaking of Molly, I love that she is sending Albus Howlers by the hour! I think that is totally funny and very in character for her. I won't pity Dumby when Molly learns what other atrocity he has committed (not telling Severus that Harry was his son).
Despite it being a rather inconvient time, I'm glad that Severus finally got some unintterupted sleep. I can't help thinking though, that it might have not been just simple sleep. I sort of ponder if he was lured to sleep by a certain "He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named." Thus the Evilness himself could have free reign of Harry.I wouldn't put it past him.
Uh oh, Harry's bleeding again. I take it,from a clothed place, perhaps his back or chest (Snape would have noticed his scar). I remember in the last chapter where he had a bloody nose and Snape was concerned that he would bleed too much (it was mentioned that Harry would need a blood transfusion in the next week). I hope that he doesn't bleed way too much and pass out.
"His skin felt like it was burning under Snape's hand, but Harry forced himself not to flinch or pull away since it would be a dead giveaway that he wasn't feeling well at all." Hmm...I wonder if the burning skin feeling is a)from Voldy's attack b) a side effect from his chemo or c) evidence of a fever due to coming down with a terrible chill.
"Harry waited until Snape left before sighing with relief. Now, he'd just wait for his nerves to recover. They always did within an hour or so in the past, and Harry couldn't see why this time would be any different." I highly, highly (read HIGHLY) doubt that it will go away in a timely manner, most likely it will cause other problems. Hopefully Snape will help stop them somehow (no potions and I don't know if Harry is allowed more pain meds due to the morphine pump). By the way, Snape definately notices something is wrong. I only hope that he can help him soon. It would be obvious even for someone who never was a spy. Despite Harry trying not to tremble, I'm sure he was probably a bit, his face probably was even more chalky white from the ordeal and the blood loss, and not to mention how his forehead felt.
I hope that Severus will win Harry's trust again, I imagine that although it will be reluctantly at first, that he will get Harry to forgive him. Who knows (well, you do,) maybe the fallout from Harry keeping the attack and subsequal results from Severus will be of help. Poor Harry. Poor Severus.
BTW, thanks for the little mention about the letters from Harry's friends. I hadn't realized that I mentioned thim in two chapters. Oops, sorry there. Thanks for the cupcake, beads and moon pies. What is a moon pie anyways?...
Have a great birthday! How old will you be? Have a splendid day! :-D -Autumn
Author's Response:
Thanks for the birthday wishes, Autumn. I turned 25 *blinks because it doesn't seem like I should be that old*. I feel like I'm in the midst of some kind of quarter life not crisis, but just a I have no idea where I'm going, what I'm doing type thing. *Sighs* I graduated from college a few years ago right as the economy was starting to tank, and there's just like nothing out there right now, so I'm pursuing the grad school route, but sometimes I wish someone would just come by and like organize my life for me. lol. The grad school application process really took a lot out of me. Okay enough of my rant. lol. ;)
Yay, I'm so happy you noticed Harry switching back to Snape in the narrative with that one deliberate Severus thrown in. Yes, you did read that part right. Severus would give you 5 points for reading so closely. :) I'm around half-way through the next chapter and Harry is all over the place with what he's calling Severus. He's really confused with everything, and I'm having fun with that part.
The new side effect deals with the Voldemort mental attack. The bland food part is certainly a little thrown in there, but not what I was trying to get to. It sorta slipped in there when Harry decided he was going to explain his feelings towards food and eating.
The Ron moment was something that needed to be worked in for a few reasons, some of which I'm keeping my lips shut about for now. It was also a nice juxtapose to the way Harry and Severus' relationship is functioning at the moment.
Yes, Sev got some sleep that'll he certainly need for the next few chapters. It was actually an innocent act, well Minerva might've had a hand in it for Sev's own good.
Harry isn't bleeding again. He is in the mental attack, but not in real life. The dream/vision world is a funny place that I can choose to have as inconsistent as I wish. It's fun in that aspect.
Thanks for the wonderful review. Your reading skills are improving (at least attuning to my style) as much as your writing skills are. Btw, a moon pie is this marshmallow and graham cracker topped with chocolate (or other flavors) type thing, sorta like an uncooked smore. They're a Mobile Mardi Gras thing. Thanks!
| Title: Chapter 30: One Step Forward, Two Steps Back | 20 Mar 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Great chapter, Ella. Well worth the wait, though I do hope that you can update soon as you left us in such a cliffie! :-D (Yeah, I know, I'm one to talk! :-P)
Yep, I knew Severus just had to know that Harry was suffering under the effects of that awful curse. Poor Harry.
I LOVED how Harry went all over the board with what he thought or verbally called Severus. From Sir, at the beginning, to Professor to thinking "Professor-er-father," to Snape to git." Harry's emotions are flinging everywhere, as a teenager in this situation would be. I also LOVED that Harry was still seeking out comfort from his Dad, even if he was not totally aware of each time. There's hope for them yet. :-D
LOL, I know this sounds at best odd, but I can't wait for Harry to start loosing his hair. Not TOTALLY because it's yet more agnst, but it will be easier for me to draw him. The reason I haven't done pictures up close with Harry yet, is because every time I draw his hair it looks like a porcypine who stuck his paw in a electrical outlet and oddly enough, Kevin Jonas (not that I follow them). LOL, did Slytherin get those extra points? (Not that I drew them for that, I'm just teasing you. :-D )Have a great day.
I also thought that the scene with Severus pondering the usefulness of potions was touching. :-D Aww.
Uh oh, sounds like trouble ahead for Harry in the nerves department. Chemo is a horror, and to mix it with Voldy's loving tender care, sheesh.
Author's Response:
Of course Severus knew, his observation skills are like second to none. ;)
Yay, you picked up on all of Harry's names for Severus. It'll most likely be like this for a bit until they come to an agreement or truce, but I don't think Harry will fully believe whatever Severus says, but will respond to Sev's actions instead. His subconscious isn't subject to Harry's teenage dramatics, lol, and knows that Severus' actions have been truthful despite what Harry thinks.
LOL. Harry's hair will fall out soon, so you can then draw him. ;) I need to get Slytherin some points for you. I forgot to add them into the total last time.
Severus has always been able to rely on potions and so now like Harry, he feels a sense of betrayal, though that doesn't mean Severus is going to give up potions anytime soon. Thanks, and I'm hoping to get a new chapter of S&E soon.
| Title: Chapter 35: Like Father, Like Son? | 08 Jul 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Hey there Ella,
Great chapter as always. I tried to review earlier today but the site messed up as I was sending it, thus loosing the long response. Anyways, here to try it again (and lol this time writing in WORD so that the site won’t mess it up…hehe.) First of all, CONGRATULATIONS on making featured status, you more than deserve it! With all the research, time and effort you put in, AIE is one of my top five stories! :-D Before I forget, have an EXCELLLENT time in London, I’m so jealous. Bring Severus and Harry back to the states, Harry can have beach therapy here, there’s a beach that’s ultra secluded after July (Chiniteague or Assateague) that he’d love. LOL. Anyways, to your review…
I must say that you always amaze me with your skill of writing. You are a true master of it, especially in showing versus telling. One of the very first things that grabbed my attention was this statement: “"Sir?" his son scooted back, his eyes averted to the floor.”It's okay. I understand."” Many writers tend to glaze over the aftereffects of abuse, such as insecurity. You however, made it quite clear that Harry was indeed scarred by the Dursley louts. In this, I think that you actually did better than JK Rowling who tended to glide over the very real emotions an abused or neglected kid would have. She showed it a bit, with Harry’s aiming to please and distrust of adults but I think that you did a better job in any case.
Oh, I imagine that Severus must feel pretty guilty over how HE treated his son for the past five years, especially learning that Harry indeed HAD wanted to learn, from that very first Potions class. “Harry bit his lip. "I really liked the very first lecture you gave, you know the brew fame, bottle glory, and put a stopper in death one."
"You remember that? I thought your attention was elsewhere," the Potions Master slid his hand down to Harry's neck, coaxing the tight muscles to relax. How many times had he assumed the worst of his child just because of his self-imposed hatred of James Potter, the man who gave him the best gift anyone could ever receive?
"I was taking notes," Harry bowed his head.” Man, Severus must feel like a heel, when he practically ENSURED that Harry would not like potions. He’s more than making up for it now however.
My previous point is driven home with a statement not to far later in the chapter. “His mind was screaming for him to change his mind, to not let his child breach his ironclad mental barriers, but Harry needed to feel the positive emotions Severus held for his child. He wasn't sure if they qualified as far as the unconditional love a parent felt for his child, it had been too long since he'd allow himself to feel love of any kind, but he had hope that one day they'd both feel unconditional love towards each other.” Severus hasn’t let anyone in his mind for a long time, and to do it willingly and of his own design says just how highly he cares for Harry.
I’m glad that Harry gets the point and begins to understand that his Dad does care and he only had to see that one memory. “Finding himself returned to the diamond wall, Harry pulled out of Severus' mind without viewing the second memory. He didn't need to see it.” That was one of my favorite statements in the whole chapter. I’m glad that Harry looks like he is coming around (yes, I know he still has a long ways to go).
It’s sad but very true how abused children can’t bring themselves to think that anyone could love them or even say the word love. It’s so true though. This compassion was deeper, more like l...lo...the four letter word that until now Harry hadn't believed any adult besides his dead parents felt for him.” I have no doubt that one day Harry will be able to fully understand it.
One section of the chapter really grabbed me. “His son nodded against his chest and wrapped his thin arms around his neck. Severus hadn't meant to imply he'd carry his nearly sixteen-year-old son to bed yet again and he wouldn't if his son weren't so ill, but if Harry felt too disoriented or drained it was better than having his child fall and injuring himself. Besides at thirty-six, Severus was young enough to handle his child's weight.
Standing and lifting his child into his arms, the Potions Master walked across the room dodging the numerous bags along the way, down the hall, and into Harry's bedroom, his steps even and sure to create a smooth ride for his child. "I trust this won't become a habit?" he set Harry down on the bed.
"I'm not two," Harry rolled his eyes, pulling off his shirt as Severus grabbed the salve from the nightstand. "Anyway, I bet if Madam Pomfrey knew of my nerve damage she wouldn't let me up for a few days at least."”
This section proves that Harry is trusting Severus more. He may not be fully ready to call Severus “Dad” or even think it, but it’s still there. Abused children and teens a lot of times shy away from touch or being carried (this goes for even emotional abuse and neglect not just physical). While my Mom and Step-Dad are great, my biological father when I was younger was no prize. Don’t misunderstand me, he was MUCH, MUCH better than the Dursley Dung and he is beginning to be a good father now that his youngest child is near 26 and several states away. Even to this day, I don’t like it when people touch me unexpectedly (I don’t like it much in any case actually) or hug, much less carry me. I’m into theatre, so I can stand it but only by acting…then there’s that whole deal with me being partially deaf in one ear so not hearing people come up as easily…..ANYWAYS…tangent, sorry, I get into a lot of those hehe. :-D My point is, that Harry in one sense is allowing himself to heal, even just a little.
I’m not obsessed or anything, I merely like Harry-torture and angst. Thus I have to say that this section was awesome. “A few minutes passed before Harry cracked one eye open and curled up onto his side, a lock of hair falling into his face. Severus brushed the piece back and ran his hand through the dark locks as his son let out a content sigh. His child's hair was longer than he normally wore it, another thing Harry neglected after Black's death. He could use a haircut, but it would be pointless. Too soon the soft, unmanageable locks would start to fall out, and he wouldn't be able to soothe Harry by running his hand through his hair. Once his son's hair started to fall out, he'd suggest shaving it off, but until then Severus wouldn't bring it up. He'd miss the mop that was his child's hair, despite it being a clone of James Potter's. That didn't matter any more.” In several chapters there have been mentions of Severus carding his hand through Harry’s hair. All of those chapters haven’t verbally made the connection between the action and the ramifications of Harry’s chemo side-effects, but this one did. Thus, that hints that it will probably happen soon. I might not be correct or reading too much into it, but you tend to do those type of hints. I suppose I’ll shall see.
This statement could have sounded snide, but the way that you wrote it more than hints that it was meant lovingly and not degrading, “"How do you they expect you to defeat the Dark Lord when you can't even take care of yourself?"” NO child should have to be in a war. I’m glad that Harry finally has a champion who cares about him and not about some stupid prophecy.
Haha, I’m glad that Ron had to write an apology and do chores. I think that he’s probably in a lot more trouble than Molly let on, from and from the twins. I would LOVE to be a fly on the wall at that house right now.
I bet Severus’ heart almost stopped in relieve after he learned that he was a match for Harry. That was a perfect line to end the chapter with, “Blood Match: 6 out of 6, 10 out of 10 Perfect Match
Magical Match: 60% Match, Patient would need to take magical suppressors prior to transplant
They matched.” I don’t know how you do it, but you never cease to amaze me with how simple sentences can be the best if placed correctly. I’m going to guess that Harry’s chemo either won’t work or he gets out of remission. There has been A LOT of talk about the bone marrow transplant for it not to be. I could be wrong, but everything points to having to have the procedure. In a big way, if anything, THAT would show Harry how much he means to Severus. Willing and eager to go into surgery to save his life. If that’s not a characteristic of love, than I don’t know what is!
I know I emailed this to you, but I want to offer you this; I would love to read and record each chapter for you as well as make you a website. I’m pretty good at those, and that’s something I could do for you. I’ll probably record them in any case, so that I can listen to them in the car or what not (though it is weird to hear one’s own voice). I love to draw but as my two drawings proved to you, I’m not that good at it.
OH, I want to recommend a song to you, “You Give Me Hope,” by Ryan Kirkland. It’s on youtube. I was listening to it as I was reading the chapter, and couldn’t believe how well it fit with AIE. It’s awesome.
Anyways, I hope that you have a great trip and steal Severus and Harry for your loyal fans and yourself…Muhahaha!
-Autumn
Author's Response:
Thanks so much! I've been meaning to get to your e-mail but haven't had time to respond. School started last week so it's been a little crazy. I'm so glad to hear AIE is one of your top five stories. ;) Unfortunately, Harry and Sev wouldn't fit in my luggage. They have this stupid luggage rule limit of 50 lbs. ;) I also had issues getting onto Platform 9 3/4. Sev and Harry must've known I tried getting on the Hogwarts Express twice and charmed the wall so I couldn't get through!
I did better than Rowling? *face plants* That's some high praise there. Although Harry's insecurities and emotions are his own, I do have to admit that some of the more emotional and "fragile Harry" scenes are somewhat of a test run for a few things I have planned in my original novel. The circumstances and aspects are totally different, but much of this story is "practice" for the "real thing." I think I've mentioned it before but I'm so happy you're picking up the showing not telling bits. It shows you're developing the skills needed to become a better writer so yay for you.
Sev's journey is a major part of the story. He of course feels horrible over the way he's treated Harry and he'll have to deal with that and any repercussions that might bring. Harry may be coming around, but it isn't the last time we've heard Harry bring up the past. After all, Harry can't be over it that easily.
You're totally right that Harry allowing Severus to touch and carry him is a huge deal. I think also as an abused child he still has that subconscious need and desire for physical contact that he was denied as a baby. He's certainly healing some and showing how resiliant a child is. Harry's trust in Severus is growing and of course there'll be bumps in the road coming, but Harry's a long way up the hill.
Harry's hair falling out is going to be soon. You're right about that. I have two options that I'm contemplating over about that so we'll see which one I end up picking.
Ron is totally in quite a bit of trouble. He's not just doing chores he's cleaning at Grimmauld Place which is way worse than cleaning any normal home since it was left for so long.
The thing with simple sentences working so well is that sometimes you have the urge to add more to it, but you need to figure out that adding a phrase onto it take away the punch the sentence has. Also in this instance "they matched" doesn't need any further explanation. As a reader you can imagine just how relieved Sev is to read those two words. If I had explained it it probably would've lost some of the impact and the way it is gives you that individual interpretation. No spoon-fed reaction for you. ;)
I'll get with you on your offer through e-mail. It might be after the weekend, but I'm going to try to get better about responding promptly to my e-mails. Thanks again!
| Title: Chapter 31: A Sleeping Dragon | 03 May 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Great chapter girlie! I really loved the awkward interaction with Severus and Harry. I think that sooner or later that Harry will come to see that Severus never meant to leave him for fifteen years. In fact, with some clues in this chapter, I think he is slowly realizing that.
Was Ms. Adamson frowning because of the extensive damage to Harry's nerves? I think so, but never hurts to be sure. *smiles*
Hmm, in almost every chapter as of late, there has been a mention of Harry's hair. Whether it was begein like in this chapter where Harry simply notices that it was out of place from lying down to when Severus carded his hand through the child's hair like in other chapters. I wonder how they will take the inevitable coming up (hopefully) soon.
This was my favorite part: ""I'll ask again. Do you really wish to be an Auror?"
"Yes...I don't know.... no," Harry felt like a weight had been lifted off his shoulder. Snape of all people was assuring him he was his own person, not a robot that must do what people told or expected him to. "I don't know what else to do..."
"You don't need to know now or even by the time you finish school. You could spend a few years traveling, get a degree at a Muggle university, open a shop, the possibilities are endless,"" That shows that Severus really does care for Harry and the child can see that.
Looking forward to the next chapter, I am glad to see that Ron will be visiting Harry, and seeing that the "greasy git" is not such a git any longer.
*Going over to ffnet to see your question* Hmm, no question, but I'm glad that Slytherin is in the lead. I wonder what Harry's next affliction is going to be.
Good luck on your finals and congrats on another year of schooling (almost!) done! Have fun abroad, that's coming up soon, isn't it?
Author's Response:
Thanks! Harry's having a war with his subconscious at the moment. Deep down he knows Severus is genuine, but there's that doubt and disbelief that he'll need to get past. He's really insecure because of his upbringing, and that's effecting him now.
The inevitable concerning Harry's hair is coming up soon. However, I bet you won't believe that this chapter's mention of hair wasn't intentional. I just wanted Harry to laugh at the end and considering he had fallen asleep it's only natural his hair would be in disarray.
I always thought it was unbelievable that Harry became an Auror in canon after being hunted his whole life. I have some ideas what he'll eventually want to do, but I'm keeping those to myself for now. Though I do have to envy Harry. To have enough money they he doesn't need to worry about getting a job or student loans. *sighs*
I'll make sure to give you your points. ;)
Thanks for the good luck. I think I aced my lit exam this afternoon. Just one stupid paper left to write. I leave at the beginning of July for my study abroad trip, and I'm also heading up to Chicago next week for my best friend's graduation ceremony. I'm excited for both trips. I just got my passport in the mail this week, and it's making everything seem more real. Now, I just have to figure out how I'm going to pack everything for month in like one suitcase. lol.
| Title: Chapter 32: Not Fine | 24 May 2010 |
| Reviewer: autumnamberleaves (Signed) |
- Aw that was a good chapter! I want to smack Ron though...stupid boy. I really liked the ending, ""Thank you," Harry whispered as he heard Severus shut the book after finishing chapter one with the wizard, Gandalf, leaving to find more information on the ring Bilbo had passed onto Frodo.
"For what, child?" the Potions Master asked, his tone questioning as if he wasn't sure what Harry was thanking him for.
"You came," Harry explained, calm and distracted from Ron's visit. He felt Severus tighten his grip around him as a tiny smile crept its way onto his face. Was this what it was like to have a father? " Harry's starting to realize his father will be there for him-I hope that he can hold on to that fragile trust when times get tougher because I know that they will.
Another part that I really liked was ""Okay," his professor wrapped an arm around his shoulder. Harry leaned against the man's side burying his head in Severus' shoulder as he felt warmth and security wrap around him, giving in to his subconscious' desire to seek out comfort from the man who was apparently his father"
I do wonder what you have next for Harry to go through-so I hope you can update soon.
BTW, did you see that special Sunday about St. Jude's Children Hospital? it was a cancer awareness/fundraiser. It was very touching.
Author's Response:
Harry's slowly starting to get used to the idea of having a father. This was a turning point, but it certainly won't be the last time Harry puts up a childish fight. He's had so much to deal with lately that once his emotions catch up, he'll have some things to say and work out. That one miniature breakdown he had back in chapter 15 can't be it. It was the tip of the iceberg really.
Harry has some tough things ahead with new chemo drugs and Sirius' memorial that he doesn't know is looming. That will certainly bring up some buried emotions that'll have to be dealt with.
I didn't see that special. I have seen other St. Jude's ones before. They are always very touching and informational. Thanks!